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Insecurity...

gives people
selective hearing.

shame on you.

takk.

I took this of myself today :)


I'm getting used to my hair now...
as long as its worn messy.

Nine days till Christmas and it doesn't even feel that way. I'm hoping I can take off a couple of days to see everyone in Orlando.

I hope I can get a new car too. we will see. either way I'm okay with it.

Today Ill start the process of looking for locations to shoot and going to contact models and Anthony the stylist to see if he'd like to work with me on my up coming project. The fear of disappointing myself again is very real but I can't run from it forever and I definitely have to defeat it.

We will see.

Light

Inspiration!

Id love for my little yellow house to look something like this inside.
modern country chic.

http://weheartit.com/entry/28966
http://weheartit.com/entry/28964
http://weheartit.com/entry/78503
http://weheartit.com/entry/81503
http://weheartit.com/entry/81506

i love rustic natural old woods with bright retro appliances.
and nice modern white furniture.
so MILKY.

:)

Their, There.

This is the next to last photoshoot I did.


I've not photographed anyone in a bit.
maybe in three or four weeks.
the last shoot i had is the one posted
on the side of this page.

gels and such
me acting as stylist, MUA and Hairstylist
+ Photographer.

Frustrating to say the least.
I still have one more shoot to edit
which was actually the one before that one.

Im not into. it.

There, there.
Their, their.
Here, Im not feeling it.

tomorrow will be new to someone outside of myself.
but to me ill go through the same motions of...
not feeling it.

I think i will think of a new concept tonight
in my dreams.


This is from the last shoot
Catherine@ mc2
Dress from Express.


S.A.

Gone

First day at blogger.

I'm terribly bored at work and thinking of my dieing passion
doesn't help me seduce more energy to the foreground.
I've decided to write in a blog because I need some sort of outlet
to put my random mind to rest.

I've entered a state of mind where I no longer want to do
what once made me very happy.
I need a long vacation with no strings attached.
Photography and the people in it have made me ill,
Actually just the people do.
In an industry where you will never come close to success
they make you feel even more inadequate.
Creativity has left my body...
She will return one of these days with a fruit in her mouth.
I'm hoping it is one that i like.



S.A.